Finally found the mood to update this dusty space. Business law examination on monday was bad! But it's over, all I hope is to maintain the GPA of more than 2.5 so that I wont get kicked out of school! Cant wait for graduation though I will feel bad about my post graduation plans! Dad's getting worried about me not being to pass through university as he could sense my inability to adjust to the hectic study regime imposed on an unwilling learner like me. Yeah it kinda sucks not being hardworking your whole life so now I am really stretched to the limit. Icannotbreathe. And not to mention profs that you bid for with huge amount of e$s and they end up not meeting your expectations? One thing to look forward to is december. DecemberDecemberDecember. Daddy promised me a trip after seeing me so unhappy and miserable from all the "studying". Im so good at pretending! ^.^ and guess what is K's way of loving? By sponsoring my shopping trips and cab fares to school when taking public transport becomes too unbearable. Not forgetting the amount of snacks and food he bought to make me happy. Really cannot imagine life after sept, when he is going to be at indonesia 3/4 of a mth ( yeah only back in SG for a week or so)-for life. So guess, dont be surprised to realize that I broke up with him after discovering the fact that he has another family with a indon woman over there. HAHA! That's his future, his destiny. Ive been told by my mom not to spoil it for him by demanding that he stays and all. Friends think that it's fantastic since it seems clear for now that I am the 5-star-resort-owner's soon to be wife. But it's painful being the woman behind a wealthy man alright. I dont wanna go through that at all. I am not strong or calm enough to deal with the problems that comes with being rich. Times like this, I become so tired and more demanding.. And the vicious cycle continues..... |